The Office.

My roomie Autumn got the 2nd season of The Office for Christmas. We've been sitting here for the past two hours laughing our heads off.

how have i never seen this? where have i been?

adventures in h mart.

have you ever been here? this place is amazing! i highly recommend checking it out. it is a korean grocery store times 1000. they have a lot of things you'd find at a publix or kroger but they have everything else korean.

the best part are the 'stores' along the walls cooking up some good korean barbeque or sushi. yum.

guess what!

i'm not going to church tomorrow.

don't tell anyone.

sometimes

i hide.

hide from my dreams.
myself.
others.
God.

i'm tired of hiding. but sometimes no matter how tired you are of something, you don't know where to begin to change.

i cant

sleep.

i'm starting to go crazy. what's up with this? i need to get off this computer and at least try...but i have this feeling i'll just lie in bed wide awake. (is that the proper usage of lie? is it lay? i've never gotten that right...)

what to do...?

might as well be productive right...i have some laundry to do.

all of you in dreamland right now...i'm not a fan.

i'm...

bored.

yep...sometimes it doesn't take much.

i don't want to watch tv...i've noticed that it drains me.

i don't feel like reading...i might learn something and i'm not in the mood for that. (jk)

i cannot call anyone...everyone's asleep. (where are all my night owl friends these days)?

i don't want to write a new song...i'm not inspired right at this exact moment...i cannot even write a decent blog right now.

i cannot take a drive with no destination in mind...because...well, really i don't have a reason for that other than i just washed my car and i'm trying my hardest to keep it clean. (who knows the next time i'll actually take the time to do that again...sorry Junior). (editor's note: no lakes were harmed in the cleaning of Junior. i went to a "we use recycled water" place. A+ for me).

my only choice left...

off to bed i go.

lights. home. birds. and other such things.

one of my favorite things to do Christmas Eve is to drive around looking at lights. we didn't do that this year. my family is really odd...have i mentioned that yet? more on that later...

but i love them. they make me laugh...which doesn't take much really so i don't know if that says a lot either way.... ;)

i have a handful of pictures but i forgot that cord thingy at home. (i'm sure it has a technical name for it but naming it cord thingy suites me just fine...) :)

i grew up in the country back roads of the suburbs. we weren't in the boonies, but we weren't in the suburbs exactly. at the time i hated it. all i could think about then was graduating and getting to the city....which is exactly what i did. but now, i find myself longing to be back in the country...and other times i need the city...do i even know what i want? i don't, but God does...so i'll go with his lead. anyway..my mom and step-dad still live in the house i grew up in...i love that. my room still looks like it did when i was 15...which as you can imagine, is quite scary. i have decided not to change it because it helps remind me of who i was...what God has done...and what He is capable of still doing in my life.

so i was sitting outside on the front porch with my step-dad as he was smoking his cancer sticks...not really taking. earlier he told me about these pheasants that they've been feeding in the front yard. i was hoping to catch a glimpse of them...not really realizing what the big deal was...or realizing that they wouldn't come up until we were out of sight. Later, my mom came rushing into the kitchen telling me to come to the window. i looked out and saw two of them eating on the food my parents put out for them. they were so beautiful. their colors blew me away. i could have sat there for hours watching them move gracefully around the yard. we cannot figure out how they got in the area...maybe they were someone's pets. but supposedly, they aren't indigenous to the area... Either way, i'm on the hunt for them now. i accidentally scared them away trying to get a picture...i tried to sneak up on them as they ran away but they were too fast for me. slippery suckers!

so the hunt continues...only to shoot their picture of course... :)