i missed LOST! WHAT?
Yes, you heard me correctly.
Somehow, I allowed the busyness of the real world...and responsibilities... take me away from the fantasy world of my favorite show.
Don't worry...it will not happen again.
Good news though. I know my mom has it recorded...so that gives me an excuse to go visit. (not like i need one).
We'll probably end up talking about Sawyer the whole time anyway... ;)
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
You make us brave.
i'm not very brave.
Well...sometimes i am.
This is a line in a Charlie Hall song that i love...
"You fight for us, You make us brave."
Erica and I were jamming in my car tonight after 7|22. We sometimes throw on a worship cd and just driving around...not going anywhere in particular....and worship God. It is one of my most favorite things to do. This song really hit me tonight. My prayer is to be braver...if you really think about it, we have nothing to lose.
"You’re closer than our troubles
More present than any danger
More grand than gold and silver
You are God, You are God"
--
On another note...i'm sitting here listening to the rain. it is coming down really hard.
it is beautiful.
Well...sometimes i am.
This is a line in a Charlie Hall song that i love...
"You fight for us, You make us brave."
Erica and I were jamming in my car tonight after 7|22. We sometimes throw on a worship cd and just driving around...not going anywhere in particular....and worship God. It is one of my most favorite things to do. This song really hit me tonight. My prayer is to be braver...if you really think about it, we have nothing to lose.
"You’re closer than our troubles
More present than any danger
More grand than gold and silver
You are God, You are God"
--
On another note...i'm sitting here listening to the rain. it is coming down really hard.
it is beautiful.
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Monday, January 28, 2008
change
one of my dearest college friends is getting married in april. she's one of the most amazing woman of God that i've met. i've grown so much just from knowing her...her love for the Lord and life inspires me. God used her that freshman year in college to break down the dead bolted door to my heart. He used her to light my way right into His grace. for that we will forever be connected...no matter how far away from each other we are geographically.
we saw each other at our worst...through breakups...heartache...hardship..family craziness..life-altering decisions...God wrecking our lives...molding...more heartache...
she saw me through living a life completely dishonoring to God...and loved me anyway. she saw me living a double life...and loved me even more. that's when the love of Christ became real to me. that's when i finally got it.
i've been thinking a lot about how things will change once she gets married...especially since it is becoming more and more real with each passing day. when i come to visit, our time won't be our own...when she visits here during Christmas, he'll come with her. there will be some things lost...but please don't get me wrong. i wouldn't have it any other way. he is an amazing man of God. i am so excited about their marriage and cannot wait to have him in my family...even though not technically.
things will just be different.
but different is good. just like when she moved to LA. i thought our friendship would take a huge blow...but it didn't. it grew stronger. and now, God has honored me with being her maid of honor at her wedding. i've never been so honored.
i'll be there this weekend...helping with some wedding stuff. i cannot wait.
is it Saturday yet?
we saw each other at our worst...through breakups...heartache...hardship..family craziness..life-altering decisions...God wrecking our lives...molding...more heartache...
she saw me through living a life completely dishonoring to God...and loved me anyway. she saw me living a double life...and loved me even more. that's when the love of Christ became real to me. that's when i finally got it.
i've been thinking a lot about how things will change once she gets married...especially since it is becoming more and more real with each passing day. when i come to visit, our time won't be our own...when she visits here during Christmas, he'll come with her. there will be some things lost...but please don't get me wrong. i wouldn't have it any other way. he is an amazing man of God. i am so excited about their marriage and cannot wait to have him in my family...even though not technically.
things will just be different.
but different is good. just like when she moved to LA. i thought our friendship would take a huge blow...but it didn't. it grew stronger. and now, God has honored me with being her maid of honor at her wedding. i've never been so honored.
i'll be there this weekend...helping with some wedding stuff. i cannot wait.
is it Saturday yet?
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Bad day turned around.
i took a nap today after church. i must have been really tired...i never take naps. my mom told me that when i was a kid, she'd never get me to bed. i was afraid of missing out on something. funny. i think i'm the same today.
but this now means that i'll be wide awake tonight until about three or four. i'm thinking more towards four. i hate when that happens.
but i had a really great night tonight. i met some really interesting people and made some new friends. i'm always up for that! But the few people that i got to really talk with tonight didn't make me feel like something was wrong with me. do you ever get that? like you meet people for the first time and you feel like your personality, humor, style, etc is on display for judgement...and you feel what they are thinking by they way they talk to you. i get it all the time...maybe it is just me. but tonight i didn't feel that way. the great conversations that i had, i ended up feeling like they weren't looking at me to dissect me...but looking at me to just hear what i had to say...and i them. it was refreshing. i think preconceived notions about someone jade most conversations...and starts things off on the wrong foot. it actually happens to me all the time...which makes me wonder. haha.
but i was definitely out of my comfort zone tonight...but it ended up working out. i almost bailed and stayed in my warm bed but i had committed to something and i couldn't back out. (i hate when people do that to me...).
all this to say, i'm just rambling...and really have nothing of substance to say....other than, i had a really bad day today, but some really great people tonight turned that around for me.
but this now means that i'll be wide awake tonight until about three or four. i'm thinking more towards four. i hate when that happens.
but i had a really great night tonight. i met some really interesting people and made some new friends. i'm always up for that! But the few people that i got to really talk with tonight didn't make me feel like something was wrong with me. do you ever get that? like you meet people for the first time and you feel like your personality, humor, style, etc is on display for judgement...and you feel what they are thinking by they way they talk to you. i get it all the time...maybe it is just me. but tonight i didn't feel that way. the great conversations that i had, i ended up feeling like they weren't looking at me to dissect me...but looking at me to just hear what i had to say...and i them. it was refreshing. i think preconceived notions about someone jade most conversations...and starts things off on the wrong foot. it actually happens to me all the time...which makes me wonder. haha.
but i was definitely out of my comfort zone tonight...but it ended up working out. i almost bailed and stayed in my warm bed but i had committed to something and i couldn't back out. (i hate when people do that to me...).
all this to say, i'm just rambling...and really have nothing of substance to say....other than, i had a really bad day today, but some really great people tonight turned that around for me.
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Cracker Barrel!
Man, I love this place! And I love that I just spent my Saturday night with some amazing folks at one of my favorite places. :)
Yes, I'm lame. I know this.
Friday, January 25, 2008
Forget what you came for?
I got together with some friends tonight and made tacos and cookies. :) I love cooking with friends....
After dinner, we decided to watch "Chocolat." I hadn't seen it since it was in the theaters back in 2000. All I remember from watching it then was that I left the theater inspired. So, I really looked forward to that feeling again tonight.
But I ended up feeling something slightly different when I left my friend's house...
For those who haven't seen the movie (I recommend that you run out to your friendly video store or get it on netflix), the movie is about a woman who comes into a repressed (for a lack of a better word) town set in 1950s France. This town is subdued by the notion that in order to worship the Lord, they must deny themselves of almost anything that brings pleasure and/or joy. These things were not found easily in this town. These people were empty. This woman...just through her presence...changed everything.
Halfway through the movie...watching piety at its finest...i felt that this woman represented Christ more through her love of the town's people than the religious authority stifling the people. Her heart was to see the people live life to the fullest...create, dance, sing, love, laugh, cry...Live!
I want to be someone that breathes life into others. That's what Christ did when He roamed the earth...so why wouldn't His followers do the same? Why would we bog ourselves down with do's and don'ts? Why does there have to be formulas? And equations of how life is to be lived? Last time I checked, God made me much different than He made you...with a different purpose...and different role. Why do I have to live like you do? And conversely, why would you have to live like me? Why do we have to follow the rules just for the sake of following the rules? Didn't Christ break rules? He was the biggest rebel of His time and i absolutely LOVE that about Him!
Now, I must change gears for a minute and address all of you rule followers. Don't get me wrong...I'm huge on authority...and respecting that...but...BUT...I'm not talking blasphemy here. I do believe that Christ followers are called to live holy lives...we are called to sacrifice and have self control...in some areas. But not in living...truly living. Not in dreaming. Not in loving others. We are called to live with and without abandon.
So let me ask you this question. Have you forgotten about that thirst? Is your forgetfulness just creating noise for others? Are you a loud gong? Or...
Or, is God using you to bring life to others? If the answer is no, I can tell you with 100% certanity that He wants to do that through you. If you let Him, you'll never be the same.
After dinner, we decided to watch "Chocolat." I hadn't seen it since it was in the theaters back in 2000. All I remember from watching it then was that I left the theater inspired. So, I really looked forward to that feeling again tonight.
But I ended up feeling something slightly different when I left my friend's house...
For those who haven't seen the movie (I recommend that you run out to your friendly video store or get it on netflix), the movie is about a woman who comes into a repressed (for a lack of a better word) town set in 1950s France. This town is subdued by the notion that in order to worship the Lord, they must deny themselves of almost anything that brings pleasure and/or joy. These things were not found easily in this town. These people were empty. This woman...just through her presence...changed everything.
Halfway through the movie...watching piety at its finest...i felt that this woman represented Christ more through her love of the town's people than the religious authority stifling the people. Her heart was to see the people live life to the fullest...create, dance, sing, love, laugh, cry...Live!
I want to be someone that breathes life into others. That's what Christ did when He roamed the earth...so why wouldn't His followers do the same? Why would we bog ourselves down with do's and don'ts? Why does there have to be formulas? And equations of how life is to be lived? Last time I checked, God made me much different than He made you...with a different purpose...and different role. Why do I have to live like you do? And conversely, why would you have to live like me? Why do we have to follow the rules just for the sake of following the rules? Didn't Christ break rules? He was the biggest rebel of His time and i absolutely LOVE that about Him!
Now, I must change gears for a minute and address all of you rule followers. Don't get me wrong...I'm huge on authority...and respecting that...but...BUT...I'm not talking blasphemy here. I do believe that Christ followers are called to live holy lives...we are called to sacrifice and have self control...in some areas. But not in living...truly living. Not in dreaming. Not in loving others. We are called to live with and without abandon.
So let me ask you this question. Have you forgotten about that thirst? Is your forgetfulness just creating noise for others? Are you a loud gong? Or...
Or, is God using you to bring life to others? If the answer is no, I can tell you with 100% certanity that He wants to do that through you. If you let Him, you'll never be the same.
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